Below is a recent interview I completed for a wonderful Italian Bondage website called Camiciadiseta.com. http://www.camiciadiseta.com. Lisa and Bond from Camiciadiseta were very kind enough to request an interview and publish some of my very speacial photos sets taken for them with me wearing a blouse with buttoned pockets while in bondage. Please take a look at this link below and in addition, read below my interview, which here it is shown in English.
http://www.camiciadiseta.com/intervista/delilah.htm
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Delilah
1 - (Bond) You are a bondage transvestite. It's not usual but I know that also in Italy there are a lot of men that love to be bound and gagged in ladies dresses. What's your explanation of your passions? And what's the difference between a trav and a man that love wear ladies dresses only in private?
(Delilah) My passions come from my love of the femininity, the beauty of womanhood, the loveliness' of their ascents. It is such a wonderful feeling to be and fit-in as a woman here in California, which is easy once you have the right elements together. It has become a self-fulfilling dream with strong positive reinforcement. The more I encourage my femininity and the more I am accepted by friends, family, and coworkers, the more I go forward. Little did I know when I began this journey that I would be this happy to be who I am, a trav or in my mind, I am a cross-gendered person. These may be the same to you, but to me, being cross-gendered encompasses a broader picture of incorporating femininity into my everyday life, not for sexual gratification or fulfillment of a fetish, but life-style.
As for the difference between a closet crossdresser and a transvestite or "trav", or may I move this to cross-gendered as I am, lies in the difference in a fetish or a life passion. For me, as a cross-gendered person, I must have an outward appearance as a woman in some manner. However, even when I am in boy-mode, I am effeminate, it is me, it is who I am. I am beautiful as Delilah or not. For a crossdresser this feeling can be only temporary and may be only a fetish. For a trav this may be be an expression of sexuality.
> 2 - (Bond) Do you think being a transvestite is about have sexual disorders or perhaps other kinds of sexual infatuations?
(Delilah) A state of being cross-gendered is difficult to identify or assign as a problem about sex or any other form therein. Now this can evolve from sexuality, I know, in this cases, in my opinion, can be reinforced positively. Sexual motivations behind dressing up can be a great thing, wonderful, if you want to dress up at home in your house and have great sex because you are turned on, what is the harm? Absolutely none. And no one's business. I love it and prefer this.
Now let's move to the other point, why I a am cross-gendered, and how I came to be.
It is infatuation of the feminine form, but on a level exceeding mere admiration. When I see I a beautiful woman, I admire her shape and beauty, I sometimes lust after her, but more often I want to be her, be seen as her, have her femininity. This may have indeed began as an objectification of women. This is controversial. I just want to be seen as a beautiful woman that I see in my minds-eye. It is an outward expression of who I should be. Though, I have no intention of moving that next step and becoming a woman, that is totally different. This is a good question and tough one to answer without serious discussion.
> 3 - (Bond) What's your vision of bondage and what is your vision "to be a trav"? Your personal thoughts and general perspective.
(Delilah) Bondage is the cornerstone of the fetish community. Who doesn't think of bondage when it comes to the Scene?
Bondage in my mind, is another form of the enhancement of the natural beauty of a person, and for a woman who is already attractive and then in bondage, she becomes the ultimate to desire. The desire is so strong for me, I want to become that, and in some strange way the two mix, bondage and trav. So with that, I become the object of wanting when dressed as Delilah and the object of obsession in bondage. Together it is a powerful notion. So then from this perspective, the bondage must enhance the vision. Ultimately, my vision of bondage, is to bring out my object of ultimate desire in myself, because it is what I would want to do, to that very same beautiful woman you my admire yourself. Do you see?
> 4 - (Bond) A simple question: I know travs that are also gay and travs that are married with a woman: what's your position?
(Delilah) That is a good question, most travs, crossdressers, and many cross-gendered persons are heterosexual, however, many have feelings about and for men. This is not unusual because, after all, women are ultimately taken sexually by men, thus a trav desires to be with a man, it makes a trav a woman. This can be gay to many, but I think most of us aren't, it's sexuality! More to the point, we want that mind fuck to feel ultimately like a woman, to be taken by a man. As for my position, I will leave that to your imagination
> 5 - (Bond) I have see on your nice website that there are many pictures of you taken in public and this vision gives me a lot of good vibrations: What do you think when you are bound and gagged in public? When you produce this kind of work, do you want to make people attention about your trav conviction or about bondage?
(Delilah) Actually this outdoor bondage never started as a way to gather attention about being a trav or gaining additional attention for my bondage, except for those who were following my career anyway. You may be surprised, the 'public" know who travs are and they know about bondage, what's the use to expose the public?
My passion came from my love of the Cityscape, it fascinates me. As much as bondage. Architecture and engineering are totally cool. I thought the two, bondage photography with the backdrop of the Los Angeles skyline, would look fantastic together. One day I said while hanging out on a roof-top club in downtown LA, "let's shoot some bondage outside, let's get this on film". And we did it. And wow, the work blew my mind. I had never seen such a profile, of bondage and the cityscape mixed together.
To me this was a pioneering effort, never before seen.
The outdoor bondage series have become my passion indeed. It has become art and transcended the pornography field...but is now art, like Bondage Shibari, but in it's own right.
> 6 - (Bond) ...and I think: is it not possible that you use bondage power only to mask your fear about your condition of being a trav?
(Delilah) This question curves back to question number three, not really. Bondage is a release for me. When I am tied up I leave my body and go in to state of relaxation, calm, and self adjustment. I loose my responsibility, then I become free in bondage. Bondage in no-way hides my fear, I am not afraid of being a trav or cross-gendered, I think I conveyed this in my first question.
I do not live in fear any more, I am sad when I am not accepted-it happens, but fear will hold me back and I cannot have that.
> 7 - (Bond) How do you live in your condition as a trav? Do you have had problems about your parents, friends, or others?
(Delilah) This is another good question. I will be honest, it is a challenge. I must make a living, not as Delilah, but as an up-standing good neighbor. I am well educated, I work a day job, totally different than bondage modeling, However, I am not in the closest.
I don't hide my earrings or French manicure at work, or during the regular day, I maintain an effeminate hair style always, I wear chick bracelets, nice form fitting blazers and heeled shoes, but for the most part, I have to wear men's clothes everyday except weekends-womans underwear just under my clothes doesn't count. Honestly, this is the hardest part, in in-fact this eats at me inside, I must fit in at work, or I will not live comfortably. And ultimately I hate this, to the bone.
The choice is no-choice, even in California this is difficult. But I have made serious strides to help my community of cross-gendered, crossdressers, or travs. I try to show that we work, eat, and shop just like everyone else. I go out as much as possible, or when I can as Delilah, to the theater, mall, or store, it expresses to the public that we should be seen as a normal acceptable minority group.
I have seen acceptance by many, and in-turn, encouraged myself to continue. I try to mix my femininity everyday in boy-mode. I have seen that this is acceptable by my coworkers and this is very comforting and encouraging. My family loves me no matter what, though this took time to understand-they have never rejected me. And friends, I wouldn't have them, unless they loved me for who I am.
> 8 - (Bond) Tell me, do you prefer to be bound by a woman or a trav? Or do you like to be bound by other persons?
(Delilah) Well irrespective of the person, I can get really turned on by anyone who can really get in my "mindspace". Consider this, I love bondage and when I am Delilah, if you make me feel as a woman and under your control, I will pure as a kitten and I will become yours. Man or woman or trav, no matter. The trick is in the confidence and rope-skill of my dominant.
> 9 - (Bond) What is your favorite bondage position? Do you like gags?
(Delilah) Hogties are my absolute favorite bondage position. I could be hogtied for a very log time. I also like just being tied on the couch, to a chair, or on the floor. And I love gags, oh please!, that is a must, a big ball-gag. And I enjoy blindfolds, when this on, I am again left to my inner-self and I am free. I become so submissive when blindfolded.
> 10 - (Bond) What do you think about our passion for blouses with buttoned pockets?
(Delilah) Blouses with pockets are sexy and seem to really enhance my breasts, esp. in tight bondage, it accentuates of my femininity. It is such unique feature to blouses that you rarely see. However, when wearing just the right blouse with buttoned pockets in combination with bondage, the scene and photos come out just great and I get so turned on by this.
> 11 - (Bond) What are your favorite kind of dresses/out fits to wear? Secretary, leather, latex, dark, or others?
(Delilah) Well it is definitely a secretary outfit. I have many of them, and have the most admiration of a woman when I see her all dolled up in a tight fitting skirt and blouse and heels, oh my god. It is my dream to be. It would be whom I am on a daily basis if I could. My favorite outfit, a nice silky blouse, a-lined skirt and matching form-fitted jacket, white stockings with garters of-course, and black patent heels. This is my outfit. Ms. Knotty.
> 12 - (Bond) Finnally to conclude this interview, I will ask you to send a message to our visitors, bondage enthusiasts and travs...
(Delilah) As a cross-dresser, a trav, or cross-gendered person, you are a unique individual and are ordained by life to be who you are. You live one-time, this is it, make it worth it, express yourself in privacy or public where possible and safely.
I would like to say, I am on personal journey to fulfill my destiny as Delilah, a cross-gendered boy-girl. I am also on a path to educate people in my community and through my website, that we as travs are normal persons. I live as much as I can as Delilah and when not, I break all gender roles. I participate in very day life as Delilah in one form or another, as a participant and pathfinder, I have made it my personal ambition to express to the world that we as travs are normal.
Finally, I want to thank you for reading my interview. I could go on and on, I have in-fact have never been interviewed and thus, I find this very flattering to share myself among you. Thank you for spending a few moments to read about who I am and what my passions are. I will think of you here in California always and hope to one-day visit your great Country.
